Changes in My Life

I have been keeping myself busy so that I feel useful. Productive even. So far, so good. All I need is to be consistent. This means I need to keep the discipline in line or else, I would stray from my path and goals. I have not completed my wishlist yet. I felt really good when completing some of the things in my wishlist. I felt more alive since it meant that I was getting closer to the goals I have set for myself.

There are short term, mid term and long term goals. Just place them in front of me and read them every day makes me motivated to move along. I have been reading a few books and they have helped me keep my mind in check. When I need some encouragement, the books were there for me to re-read and find another paragraph or chapter that would help me get back in focus.

Having a life coach also helped as there were times when I felt discouraged or just needed a listening ear. For a year, I was struggling with my internal thoughts and fears on the changes that I wanted to make. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to take it but the saying, “No pain, no gain!” came back to my mind. Although it is often used in exercises, the pain was actually my discomfort at the major change.

I took up volunteering at NLB even though I hated the first session, I could have managed my choice in handling my emotions better by stopping to reflect before reacting. I also took up a position as a part time training assistant. I still enjoy it as the time is flexible and I do get to enjoy the time I have now.

There may be times when I have to be stern and firm with the young kids since they tend to shout whenever they are in the room with a stranger unless they have been managed before entering the classroom. In life, I discovered that it wasn’t really the money. It was the fact that I had to put food on the table that I had to work myself senseless.

I was trying to seek a purpose in life and finding none, I was feeling very low at a point in time as I felt that life wasn’t just work and being unable to fulfill the goals I had in mind when I was younger. Many times in the past, I felt upset with the career path I was walking on.

While in my search for a purpose in life, I found that self-improvement books have helped me discover that I wasn’t the only one in the world feeling helpless. There were/are a lot of people struggling to find peace within themselves too!

The skeptics may not be able to accept it now, but sooner or later, they will also discover that they have been trying to find a purpose in their lives too. When we have a purpose in life, we feel energised each day because we are motivated to be happy for our decision to take steps in changing our lives for the better.